Yoz!~
Went back to school I pretented to be darn high..
And yes..
I succeeded...

Or should I say NOT!~

Benny noticed...
He asked...
I pretended I never hear him...
I walk away...

I was like sudden staring into space that kind of thing...
In deep thoughts...
Afik saw...
Benny saw...
But in class...
Friends are friends...
Close friends are who?
Where is bestfriend?

I truly don't know...
Seriously lost my sight and picture of my future...
Which path...

Or is there even any path for me to choose and take?
Anyway...
I've lost my interest in school...
I don't know how else I can survive in this school...
Is there anyone?
A simple thing can make a big different...

You've come and said something to me...
However, it don't work out like last time...
Tears glands might be out of control now...

Argh!~
Life can never be sucks...
For life can't sucks...
Mid year is this coming tuesday...
ANd I've not got the mood to study...

Flunk and retain...?
I don't know...

9:58 PM she's got style

2:17 AM she's got style

12:40 AM she's got style

Friends..
DO they actually come and go as and when they like?
I don't know...
Friends is like chapters in a story book...

A story book about my life...
First chapter...
Perhaps my nursery friends...
They're remembered by me...
But am I still their mind?
I don't know...

Second chapter...
My PAP friends...
I remember them...
Especially those who dance with me...
The umbrella dance...
Memories lingers vividly in my mind...
Can never be washed away...
But do they remember me?
I don't know...

Third chapter...
My primary school friends...
They actually come and go..
Kit Ping who was once my bestfriend...
Now we've like kinda lost touch...
Why must I always make the first move...
It's tiring...
I don't know...

Fourth chapter...
My secondary school friends...
Once my best friend... Jessamine...
Close friend Hui Linn...
But look @ our relationship now...
It's like a you see a muddy pool and turn away...
Friends are not as close as they used to be...
Now they care about their new friends...
Are new friends so important?
I don't know..

Fifth chapter...
My Millennia Institute friends...
Friends there might be unpredictable..
It's full of schemes...
More cliques than ever...
I don't know what life would be like...
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I do look forward to the future and not look @ the past..
Don't characters in the story books reappear as soon as they're needed?
I don't know...
Story books are always so nice...
My life?
WoW!~
No words to describe...
I'm actually lost in my path of life now...
It's like you strangling in the antartica ocean...
You being left alone there...
Freezing cold...
Left alone!~
Loneliness engalfs my flickering flame in my heart...
Only dangers are seen ahead...
Danger of no food...
No water...
No rescue...
Not even a companion...
It's so lonely...
Sea breeze blown across your ears...
Can only hear the sound of wind and waves...
It's so cold...
Freezing cold...
Worst than being in blizzard...
Skins wrinkled...
Pale looking face like a corpse floating in the middle of no where...
Where none even notice it...
Birds flew across...
But left no attention to the corpse...
It's desheartening...
I don't know how to continue...
Till someone out there finally realise the existence of this particular person and rescue her...
Or there might not even be this someone or something that notice her except the predators...

12:12 AM she's got style

Wait...
Of all things..
I seriously envy the rich!~

Born with a silver spoon...

Ok!~ Yadayadaydaya........

Don't envy them... I know...
But....

I seriously like their life as young kids and adults...

To be frank...
I rather be rich than poor...

Ok... I'm materialistics...
That's what all of you would say...

I mean what's the point of envying them when you have what they don't have...
Ok... What i meant is parents love and whatever shit lahz...

Anyway... This entry meant to be pessimistic for what I am...

Ermz... Nice Gary and Hui Linn...
I praised them for they endured my nonsense when I'm online chatting with them...

Shit... I lost all my courage..
Or perhaps i've none in the beginning...

I don't know what gone wrong with me...
I'm not good with words... Like Nicole and her sister... Jessamine... Whoever lahz...
I love reading their blogs... Perhaps I find their blogs are much more interesting and nice looking than mine?

I don't know...

Question posted by Gary!~

One fine day, a young 13 year old boy was walking and walking.
He saw his friend and decided to chat with him, his friend told him that his elder brother just bought him a brand new expensive handphone.
Guess what that young 13 year old boy said to his friend?

Answer by Gary!~

wow.. so good.. i wish i could have that too..
that 13 year old kid didn't say that
he said: "How i wished i could be like your brother"

see!~
thats what most people would react
wow.. how i wish i had a brother to give me that ex phone too

I didn't get it @ first... But i got it...
However... I still envy them...

I just couldn't find the courage to face the facts of what i am...
What i'm given...
What i'm bestowed upon...
What has been decided for me the moment i as born...

Kinda weird for me to think of all this...


I even think i'm crazy for having such thoughts?
People always say humans are never satisfied with what they have...

I agree...

However... I envy the rich@!@#$$%&%((*__+*&^%$#@!~%^&*()__(*&^%$#@!*()

They can enjoy when they are young...

They do not need to worry about financial problems...
They get what they want that make them no need to get migrants over stupid issue..

For example no money to school or what so ever...


I know people will than say they suffer while they are in adult hood...
I think that's because the way their parents treated them makes them so...

However... Not all suffer in adult hood...
Some even succeeded being great people...

For example prime minister lee hsien long..
His son and daughter so big things isn't it?

And they can enjoy while they are young?
I meant that they can travel and buy the things they want...

It's like my life I've to work for everything that I want...

I envy jessamine...
Seriously...
She actually got money from her dad...
WHich is not little..
I envy her...
Seriously..

I don't know what's got into me..


I WANT SUGAR DADDY!~
bE MY SUGAR DADDY ANYONE?#?!

12:17 AM she's got style

Shit!~

I've got the urge to become a freelance model!~

Should I or should I not...

What a dilema...

Argh!~

Model for me or not???

I think it's nice to go overseas and earn big bucks...

Just by posing and standing and doing some walks...

Though need to work on the diet nevertheless...

Argh!~

Should I go or that course???

Haha!~

10:27 PM she's got style

9:17 PM she's got style

Oppsy!~
Been quite busy with my life lately...

Anyway... People been falling sick lately...
On after another...
WHY!?~!?@?@$?$%?^$?%^*^&?)?*^?&?!@$?~@$

I'm so effing crazy over Red Ruby Vodka!~
Whoever can get me one of those... I'll darn greatful and will love u darn loads!~

Oppsy!~ Uploading MISS CHEN PINXIN's WEDDING PICTURES!~
She's so darn happy!~
And that CLARENCE and MI YUN are together!~ I know they will last!~
Way to go guys!~

5:14 PM she's got style

Oppsy!~
Been quite busy with my life lately...

Anyway... People been falling sick lately...
On after another...
WHY!?~!?@?@$?$%?^$?%^*^&?)?*^?&?!@$?~@$

I'm so effing crazy over Red Ruby Vodka!~
Whoever can get me one of those... I'll darn greatful and will love u darn loads!~

Oppsy!~ Uploading MISS CHEN PINXIN's WEDDING PICTURES!~
She's so darn happy!~
And that CLARENCE and MI YUN are together!~ I know they will last!~
Way to go guys!~

5:14 PM she's got style